Jim McGaw's Blog


Hiya. I'm an open-source web engineer who likes to write.

Dominion

When I was in college, I had a friend from Lebanon who used to tell me, at length, about that old truism about how Jews control the media, the banks, etc. Of course he has this belief, and he's angry about it, for reasons that he derived from his father. I thought about this and my first reaction was, "Good for them!" I'm happy for other people and their accomplishments. I control my toilet, my...

No Regrets

It dawned on me over the course of this past week that I really don't have any regrets. I've examined a lot of the important decisions I've made in my life, and I know that in each circumstance, I've made the right choice. At least, I'm sure they're the choices I would make again if I had it all to do over again. Somehow, this is a terrible and bittersweet splinter in my side. It...

Between the Bored and Me

I'd say I've finally gotten to a place in my life, a place to which so many have arrived before me, when I'm not surprised by anything. I'm an optimist, but I find that I generally lack enthusiasm for things. I recently relocated to a new area of the country, and people, upon learning this, have suggestions for me. "Oh, you know what you have to try?" I try to be polite with them, but...

Between the Lines

I recently had a devoutly religious family member challenge me on my faith. By personal preference, I'm taciturn about my own faith. I don't feel the need to go around pushing what I feel might be true, or what's convenient for me to feel is true, on anyone else. I've spent years investigating my own feelings about these matters, and I don't see them as being necessarily applicable or even transferrable to any other person....

Balloonhead

This is one thing I too often get wrong. I'm generally an optimistic person. I'm not saying I think the world is a great place. It isn't. But I've come to believe, in all situations, by default, that I'll be able to deal with whatever difficulty gets tossed my way. I tend to keep my chin up and grin moronically at those around me, because the alternative is frowning moronically at those around me. And...

Tropes

In the summer of 1998, my best friend and I went to see the film City of Angels. We had each just turned 16, and were relishing the sudden ability on our parts to escape our parents' houses with borrowed vehicles. If we'd known better, I'm sure we would have chosen to see a better movie, but at the time, both of us were hopeless romantics. (Emphasis on "hopeless"; "romantic" is debatable.) I didn't care...

Non-Adventures in Dating

A couple of weeks ago, my roommate's fiancé was in town, visiting from North Carolina. I had met this girl previously, and if I had to guess, I'd say I didn't make a good first impression. It was a Friday night, I was still unemployed, and I was a few beers deep. I don't usually drink, so a few beers turns me into a certifiable idiot. Not that I need the beer to get to...

So What Now?

I live in California, near the coast, so the results of yesterday's election equate roughly to the apocalypse. At least, that's the sense I've derived from the people I've encountered today, at work and otherwise. I'm a little disappointed that both the House and Senate fell to Republicans, along with the presidency. In my limited experience, the political texture of Congress is far more important for its impact on day-to-day life than who's sitting in...

Patriarchy

I'd say that men and women are not on equal footing in our society. Men have the advantage. I know this from my own experiences, because I try to pay careful attention to the world around me, although admittedly my mind wanders more than I'd prefer. But how might I make this case to someone who asked me about it? How to argue the point? Here's my argument, which is a name: Elliot Rodger. I...

The Song of Songs

So I was walking down El Camino Real yesterday, which is the main stretch the runs through Silicon Valley, and I was watching people in their cars as they drove by. I find it fascinating how many Teslas there are on the road out here; I've never seen so many in any other part of the country. At some point, I glanced out at the road and caught at rather attractive woman alone in her...